My Mum told me to clean my room, so I’m on WordPress.
I always had this perfect image of myself, how I would be in the future. When I was little I always thought I would be a professional Softball player or an actress. Something extraordinary for that matter. But I look at myself today… A sad girl with only her books to keep her company. I’m a bit appalled by myself. I wish I could turn the clock and apologize to my younger self for ruining my life. I was never a happy kid that’s why I always imagined myself happy in the future. But to be honest I get worse every year. My attitude has completely changed from the time I went to private school to now. I used to be outgoing, funny, friendly, smart. I guess when you’re not around very many people each day, something in you changes to become quiet. Nobody to talk to so you kind of just talk to yourself.
I doubt any of you have felt this way. If you have, then you’ll understand. I want to be back to the way I was. But, something in me refuses to change. I guess I will have to cope with it for a bit longer.